I don’t like being myself
Many bad things happened in September, perhaps like what FengShui master say about this year, is not a good year for Sheep! Yes, I had ended a nine years relationship with someone. It happened so suddenly but I didn’t blame to anyone else but myself. I am physically exhausted and mentally drained after being asked just to be friend.
I never worn black and white color to work because I don’t like this combination. Today is the first day that I started work after back from holiday, I choose a black and white combination. It represents I don’t like myself too.
Anyway, I still have to work. I need to keep a great smile face to my ‘clients’ (I am not a prostitute). Even though I feel stress but I have to keep it for my own. I know I am not the only one who get suffer with this changed, however the process is too tough for me.
Perhaps it is not the end, just a rest for both of us. Perhaps someone feels tired to have a relationship, or am I really that… bad? Again, I start feeling that I don’t like myself again.
不懂 J.J林俊傑
